Humble...........but scared!

But First, I did want to thank all my wonderful family for showing up for my birthday gathering in Detroit. Not only is it a place where you can have fun in the pool, but one can also "hot dog" behind the Oscar Mayer weinermobile at the Henry Ford Museum. ...and visit there with my childhood friends living in the Bucky Fuller Dymaxian prefab house of the late '40s.




Life is what happens when you are busy making plans! A year ago, I was really scared, confused, wondering what happens next and thinking of getting a will together and so forth.

Today I am much more traveled, still scared, but feeling very humble that I have had such good help and support from so many friends and relatives--including people I didn't even know. Just yesterday, a friend took me to Columbus for yet another medical procedure. This time a gum operation....painful "little" thing right now, but I await better results.

Back to the Humble part. I feel very strange that "all of a sudden" I seem not to be showing cancer. I don't really feel much different. I still have a constantly plugged sinus, bad gums (maybe not for long), a constant pain in my side from the pleurodisis(sp) operation, and very little feeling in my toes called neuropathy(again sp). But, no cancer at this time!

Friends, relatives once again step forward to congratulate me. (Did I do this?) It is really sweet to have so much support. But, I am scared. How can it be gone? This was "not cureable." The big scare is thinking too much about "is it really gone?" If so, when will it come back? I'll bet this is a pretty common reaction for people in my position. Now, enough of this thinking!

I have had such a difficult/great year, reorienting my life, ideas, and way of living. If this damn cancer shows up again, I will be able to deal with it! In the meantime, I will continue to deal with my other ailments, but mostly to live life to the fullest. I will try to help others, travel, even go back to work a bit--and have fun with all of it!!